Hello Loneliness

Hello Loneliness
By Doyzkie Buenaviaje

I never thought I’d be back here
A familiar feeling of emptiness and uncertainty.
After months of being numb,
We got tired. Cold.

Is this what I want?
Did I intentionally do it?
Yes. Maybe. I don’t really know.
I am currently stuck in a void.

I asked for time.
But your mind keeps on formulating conclusions.
You got every right to be paranoid.
But the constant push, made me repel.

Coquetry.
That caused it.
“I am only human”, is my only excuse.
And all I can say now is sorry.

Everything unfolded at a wrong time.
With so much in my hands at that moment,
I could barely hold on and breathe.
We both  got tired.

But there’s no such thing as wrong timing.
Only unwanted events.
Perhaps this happened for a reason.
An incident to teach both of us a lesson.

Or maybe this is the universe telling me
That I am meant to be alone.
Broken. Cold. Numb.
Hello there, loneliness.